Hold on, let me start this again with this. This is not an itinerary or where you should go to this country, tourists also know that this country is already beautiful enough. So, I think it comes down to this, this is my letter about the country in which I grew up and the country that I will never fail to have a love hate relationship with.
The Philippines is a mix of everything, literally everything, but all I know is that on my way to work now I'm extremely stressed of the traffic. This fact may be shallow but it is part of the reasons why I question my stay here.
Despite the stress, there's something about the city life that still excites me, I know there is something beautiful, it's there somewhere. Maybe I should stay a little more, but do I really want to?
And here goes the natural resources, oh it's just amazing, incredibly amazing that you will just want to stay there for a long time. However, I know its beauty is not enough for me. Yes, I want to stay, but there's still something that makes me want to leave.
Don't get me wrong, but I love the Philippines, maybe I love it so much that it became my comfort zone that is holding me back to stay somewhere else. Parts of me still say that hey, you are not made for this country, but what happens to me when I leave?
Forgive me for asking so much questions, but this is the Philippines for me, an enormous gorgeous puzzle that I am yet to figure out. But yes, it is there, somewhere the answers to a thousand of queries in my mind.
For now, all I know is this, I'm still young, there are still a lot of time to figure things out. And just like the whole Philippine nation, the best lesson that I am now living is to not let fear get in the way. I'll know things, in its right time and place.