Everything is white, muted, yet beautiful but deceiving.
Winter has always been our favourite, maybe because it also makes us feel that we could freeze certain memories with this season. Or it could just be with me, maybe holding on to scenarios in my head is better.
The reason for not having so much Your Letters (or Your Letters Drop) in this side of the world is because of my anxious self with the simple acts that one could easily do. So I'll just share this piece with you.
This photograph was actually one of the few that I took myself, the reason for that is not that I don't like to take photographs because I actually do love to capture the beauty of the world. The thing is that my mind is holding me back with everything that I want. When I took this one I checked 3 times front and back if there were no people that saw me, it was way darker than it looks, 8 a.m. winter time in Belgium and also this is one fast snapshot.
Social anxiety is more than just talking or interacting with people, and I know lot won't understand this. They think I am acting out or have to get over it, stop thinking that everything is about me, while in fact it's nothing like that. But I am trying and of course, some days are better than others.
It's winter and freezing cold, hands are in cuts, the snow cracks underneath my shoes, and the wind makes your eyes tear up. Despite all those, I love this season more than anything to be honest, no need to wait for rain to put on your hood or scarf, just the perfect weather to dress warm and comfortable.
Everything is already starting to melt by the time you will read this because snow never last long in here. And that means that spring is around the corner ready to heat things up a little. So I'm going to enjoy the cold while it lasts still and I hope to make Eena experience a winter in here some day.
Thank you Eena for understanding my fears and dealing with it. And to the people who accept and try to understand what it's like.