The first time I tried to write this letter was a month ago but decided not to publish it because I was afraid to know that I had things to say. So, this morning, I just let things flow.
Last month, I found this notebook that contains my online meetings with Bart, it screams so much about our youth, distance, and dreams. The first draft of the Your Letters project was also here and that's when I realised that we were still those kids but now, we are trying to veer away from the pressure of the online world.
Now, I am writing this letter on this found notebook of mine while trying to listen to my room's environment; there's a certain "meow" that comes in and the wind chimes are constantly creating music with the wind. My room's movement made me explore more on the thoughts that I found and new things that I still am observing with each morning that comes by.
Am I happy today or did I jus stood up to function?
I set aside those thoughts and just let this day in.
Every morning, either Theo or Olivia or both of them come by to wake me up with a loud meow. They once made me feel like I had to rush and get out of my bed right away, until one day, they both snuggled with me and that's when I thought that maybe my cats remind me to be up early to see the sunrise and move slow with it. Because having that certain peaceful time is truly a privilege.
To date, I have more or less 50 plants that live inside my room and nursery, they all function and grow differently but with a common purpose of purifying the air of my home. Interacting with all of them is also therapeutic, since aside from nature's beauty, we are all connected with plants because if you'll think about it we are like them too. We have our own lives as we move and grow at our own pace.
And two things that I have learned from them is when you provide them with the love, care, and distance (or in plants' terms, neglect) that they need, they will welcome you in their family and I also love to believe that view of mine is real because it's just one wonderful thought to be one with them.
I wrote all these to make a little more sense of my mornings and I realised that today is also the Earth Day, which we do not really celebrate, same with the Earth hour. We know they are great reminders that we should be better for the world, but we should still all use those small acts to to create bigger impacts. The Earth does not need an hour or just a day, it needs every second of our lives to be healed, but remember to start small, do not pressure yourself too, instead learn from each of your movement and hopefully caring for your surroundings will be a normal part of you in the future.
Writing this piece is a big move for me because in my mind, things do not easily matter, but it made me see that there will always be hope in every morning that will come, even though we feel trapped for the most of it.